Mozambique Musings

Where I've Been:

Mozambique, Africa for 4 months teaching 2nd grade.

Where I am: 

I returned to Texas for Christmas. I (barely) arrived on Christmas Eve. I have (slowly) been adjusting to life back in the USA. After MUCH thought & prayer I have decided not to return to Mozambique. It was not an easy decision and has been very hard for me. However, I feel at peace with my decision. This may be a surprise to some of you, but I have been praying about this decision for awhile now, even while I was still there. Going to Africa was hands down the hardest thing I have ever done. I do not regret my decision to move there. I learned so much and experienced things I will never forget. I also do not regret my decision to stay home. It was a hard decision, but I was able to leave Moz. on good terms. I was able to express my feelings about not returning & although they encouraged me to return, I did not feel at peace about it. 

Mozambique will always have a place in my heart & I will never be the same. I will always cry for Africa.  It is not a place you can forget about or block out in your mind.  It infects you and you can never see the world the same. Sometimes I wish I had never seen Africa, the "dark continent", but mostly I love that I got to live there and experience it on a deeper level; that despite all the wicked darkness in that place, there is Light & Hope & Joy. I carry a burden for Africa and I am still figuring out what that means and what my part is in God's plan to redeem her.  I left there knowing that it would not be the last time for me...that I would return again someday.

Where I'm Going:

Currently I am in San Antonio, Texas. I am slowing getting back into the swing of things. Although it is hard when you are jobless, homeless, &  pennieless... it is good to be back with friends & family. I am hoping to substitute teach and eventually find a teaching job for next year here in SA. All of my things have been in storage since LAST Christmas so I will be excited for a steady pay check and eventually an apartment of my own. Its been awhile! I would love your thoughts & prayers during this transition period. It has been very hard adjusting. I know God is in control & has a plan for me. Hopefully this gives you an idea of what's going on with me. Thanks so much for taking interest in my world. I hope to continue blogging despite the fact that I am no longer living in Africa. I have a few more stories from Africa to share that I have put off sharing with you because they are emotionally draining & I am still processing them myself. Stay posted...